Wednesday, May 27, 2009

The Meeting

Our meeting with the expectant mom went very, very well. She seemed like someone I would be friends with anyway. I really liked her "energy" and got a good feeling from her. At this point she doesn't seem very interested in contact except pictures and letters through the agency. Whatever works for her works for us. She thinks that she will deliver the baby before July 1. She says that she feels bigger than she has with her other pregnancies so she thinks she is farther along. She feels like it will be sometime in the last few weeks of June. Her last labor only lasted about an hour (!) so I doubt we will be able to make it in time for the delivery. She is worried she is going to have the baby in the car on the way to the hospital! Luckily, she lives very close so hopefully she won't panic too much once her contractions start.

She brought us pictures from her ultrasound. She looks pretty good to me, for an alien!


I am feeling very good about her, as a person, and the reasons she is choosing adoption for this baby. I am holding all of it in a positive light and know in my heart that it will work out like it's supposed to.

Monday, May 18, 2009

It's A Match

Wow. Am I a crappy blogger, or what? So sorry for the long breaks. I should either do it or don't, for goodness sakes. At least I am back with some good news.


My husband and I were matched with an expectant mom in Florida who is due with a biracial (cc/aa) baby girl on July 1st. We are flying to Florida this weekend to meet her and have dinner. I am excited, apprehensive and a feeling a little more than jaded. Certainly not with domestic adoption specifically as this is our first match and so far, everything has gone as it should, but with just adoption in general. I have the feeling of been there, done that, waited before, lost a referral, lost money, emotional drain, yada, yada, yada. I am not consciously trying to protect myself I just feel kind of numb. I just can't seem to work up a lot of "feeling" right now. I am really hoping that after our meeting with her I will get that buzz. The excitement and nervousness and mental planning and shopping! Believe or not, after all the shopping I did in anticipation of our first adoption, there are LOTS of things we need. I didn't by any clothes for a baby under 6 months of age and we don't have anything practical like a car seat, stroller, bottles or diapers! I still haven't bought much and want to wait until I "know" it's going to happen but that just isn't practical.


So here we are. Waiting again. I feel kind of sad that I'm not climbing the walls with excitement and nervousness. I know that feeling will come eventually and I am very much looking forward to counting down the weeks, days and minutes until she goes into labor and flipping out every time the phone rings wondering if it's "the call". I can't even imagine how long the flight is going to feel! Wow. Actually, just thinking about all of that makes me feel more excited. See, blogging is good!

Thanks for reading.